I feel like 2nd year really started like a bucket of cold water to the face. I was still reeling from almost 2 months of full-time plus in the hospital, jet lagged, bleary eyed...and BAM!
Rheumatic heart disease!
Acute astma exacerbation!
I feel like I am drowning this year*.
I made all sorts of vows to keep up a strong training regime, to play mandolin every day, to spend quality time with Tobie, to get a good nights sleep, to eat well...
It seems that I am constantly trying to patch together work for the weeks PBL, cram anatomy from last year, review all of our cases from last year, prep for the weeks "line of fire" anatomy session, and learn the new material being thrown at us.
I am tired of the 'drinking from a fire hose' analogy. Drinking would mean there might be some satiety involved, some resolution of thirst. But I honestly feel like the I am just running after the bus which is belching exhaust (and lung cancer causing hydrocarbons!) at me.
It is just hard knowing when enough is enough. When have I read something enough, when do I understand something enough, when have I gotten enough detail. It is impossible to know and it is that nagging uncertainty that I am sure is now fueling my insomnia. Oh, hey thanks for returning with a vengeance sleep thieves!
So blogosphere...how do you structure your time? How do you know when to stop? How do keep your sanity (relationships, hobbies, life) in medical school?
*Ok maybe there is something to that stupid fire hose analogy. Damn.